Quote of the Morn

The first thought running through my head at 6 am today:

"To pee or not to pee, that is the question."

Dorky, I know, but this is a true account of the actual silly things that pop in the ol' noggin'. On a regular basis. If you are my friend, this should not shock you.

You see, I often wake up far earlier than I want to (why wake when I am childless, it's summer, and I don't have to?) merely because the ol' bladder is uncomfortable. (I didn't say gall bladder, don't let your eyes glaze over yet!)

If I can just lay there & turn my mind away from waterfalls and such, I can usually drift back in la-la land another hour or so. If I allow myself to get up & make it to the loo...I often find I am up for good. I don't want to start my day at 6 am. Not when I am usually turning off my reading lamp at 1 am or so.

Yet this morning the early rise was a good thing...I started coffee for my husband. I helped him pack a lunch for work. We also had a few leisurely minutes to just hang out in bed.

I wanted to just pamper him a bit because I was feeling good for the first time in days (the pain literally cycles) AND he was extra sweet yesterday.

Two nights ago, I hit a breaking point. I had had a so-so afternoon pain-wise, but when I got to my friend Laura's and realized they were scrambling to find a sitter just so they could grab a meal with her soon-to-be-in-labor sister, I felt good enough to jump in and say I could do it. In fact, I was quite joyous to do it! Connor is about as sweet as they come and I love hanging with that little guy! However, my pain started coming on while I was there and the guilt I felt for having to let Connor cry in his bed so he'd go night-night coupled with my pains was not pretty. Tanner came over and really helped me. My sister-in-law & her hubby called not long after I got home...I was exhausted, I was hurting. They wanted to know if I could watch the boys (my 3 nephews) during lunch the next day.

If it weren't for my immediate pain then and there, I would have had a hard time saying no. I LOVE those boys and normally would be glad to do it. But never knowing when I'm going to feel like crap, commitments have become very, very difficult for me.

So, gave my 'no' and called it a night. Except a huge wave of frustration/guilt/depression flooded me suddenly. I was so tired of this pain controlling my actions, my promises, my LIFE. I had to let the floodgates open....I sobbed like a baby a good 15 or so.

Now, Tan didn't even hear or see that; he was out in his "man cave" working.

But little did I know he was also online ordering me a dozen multi-colored roses to be delivered the next day.

I found them in a box on the porch yesterday when I got home. I mean it, the flowers instantly lifted my spirits and made me feel a million times better. A wave of deep-seated love for him rushed over me when I read the card. It's true, gestures like these are classic for a reason. A girl loves LOVES flowers. Especially the unexpected, just-because-I-love you kind.

I will keep my promise, dear reader...

...and find things to write about BESIDES my gall bladder. Ok, I'm not in terrible pain at this exact moment (tho that could easily change) so I will just jot down a few other things I like to think about these days. Hmmm:

1. I love making a to-do list on a small dry erase board. It's my new thing. I couldn't keep up with those stupid paper lists & besides, now I'm saving a tree, right? Ok, so not that much...

2. We got an above ground pool over the weekend...not talking huge, but not talking tiny either. Now, before you start thinking, "Wow, them there Hubberts-uh sure done good for themselves! Al-be-dern!"...you just know that you gotta work hard to achieve these goals. I am not in my 104th semester of higher learning for nothing, people!

3. The above ground pool is 3 1/2 feet deep. We don't have children. Yes, it was my next step after the dog chewed my kiddie pool. Yes, I did have a kiddie pool. And I loved it a lot. It will take time, but I will make room in my heart for the new one.

4. I finally got a few wedding photos framed. Just a few. And that was only because we had outta town guests & I had to make some quick "make our little bungalow seem a tad more homey" decisions. I still have SO much I want to order but the task is daunting to my wee brain.

5. The finale of the Bricktown fireworks show was super amazing last night! Kinda cerebral (does that mean kinda spooky/spacey/other-worldly? too lazy to look it up). See, there was zero wind & all the smoke stayed hovering, so when more lights flashed it had this eerie "peeking through the clouds" look. Neat.

6. I ran into a former student right as the finale ended. I had him as a 6th grader & now he's almost driving. He was just as sweet as ever. Moments like those are surreal when you are under the false pretense that you are still young & no where CLOSE to middle-aged. ;)

7. I just finished a thick book (due to being in bed a ton for pain that I promised not to talk about...) that was fascinating. Tanner & I enjoyed discussing the subject matter. I like when we take time to sit around & just have philosophical discussion. Moms, will he & I lose that when we have kids some day?

8. Speaking of kids, got a friend that should be having her baby this week. There are 2 ways she is going old school: 1. no predetermined birthday, no inducing, just good ol' fashioned water breaking at some unexpected moment. 2. they are not finding out the sex ahead of time. So, it's just all a big surprise....kinda fun. I will say that it has left a blank on what I want to buy her...I'm usually quite gender-specific in baby gifts.

That's a wrap. Yay, I do have other things to talk about! Was not really sure anymore. Toodles!

~Lisa